Wow. Even though I don't think this blog has any watchers, I seriously need to update this thing. I've hit a HUGE turning point in my life.
Let's start off with one point: college is giving me hell, and I can barely focus on four classes. I've learned not to take multiple 3 or 4 hundred level classes in conjunction with a math class. I'm horrible at math as is. The passion is lacking.
Second point: my b/f is certain going to the AF is his only solution because of the current condition of the economy and not having found a job to get a head start in yet. I think volunteering would help, but in the big scheme of things, that problem still remains. he's still a teenager and the military will accept him easily. I'm 21, chances aren't so great, i think...
Anyway, I DID get my FAA written exam for the rotorcraft done recently, with almost an A. School is giving me heck so I can't work on preparing for the check ride right now. However, as soon as it hits May, there will be NO holding me back. I will get it finished, and solo before the next fall semester, so if all goes well, that would be this summer, summer of 2010.
My b/f is warning me that this is his only choice. I can move in with him as a dependent. If i joined the AF, it would be just as risky career wise and staying together because they put you in the same roof only if their needs are being met. If some situation were to arise where one of our jobs demanded us elsewhere, (whether or not it currently fell with in my interests), we would have to comply. I don't want to risk that.
ALSO, I cant even think about cross-branch marriages as an option, b/c the AF will not accept it. So if i wanted to fly helicopters in the coast guard, i could not live in the same roof as my b/f on base unless some how we were able to get enough money for our own house elsewhere, which might very well be impossible with the way military jobs work, especially for pilots.
So if i want to have a fair chance at keeping a decent job, i have to finish my degree and flying, getting in as much as i can before he has to move. If i have to move in with him later AFTER im done with college and have got a job figured out, maybe it wont be so bad. If i were to go with the AF as well, it would be just as risky if not worse, from the way I see this situation.
I do know one thing, I'm not giving up flying just yet. Not when I'm this close, and I'm sure as hell not breaking up with my b/f b/c i have to stay a civilian pilot. To keep both my destinies in check, this is probably the number one smartest option I can foresee. All I have to do is keep trucking through college and finish up flying as planned. If I have to wait another year or two, it'll all be on me, but at least I can still live as a Dependent with him later on, and I still have at least SOME kind of chance working as a civilian.
I WILL GIVE UP NEITHER.
